Today I walked the magical forests of ‘National Park De Veluwezoom’, or as I prefer to call it: the woods of Rhederoord. Even though a forest would be more appropriate I guess, with its trees and lush hills covered in golden brown leaves.
Sometimes I just stand still and imagine that in another realm or parallel universe, there are tiny houses just beyond the trees where little people gather and live in total harmony and love for their forest. I savour that feeling…. But then something pulls me back in THIS reatlity where I need to keep track of time (because I have appointments), where I am going (so I don’t get lost), and have to worry about the ranger (that checks if I keep my dog on a leash).
Sometimes I wish I could tell the forest-ranger that I am not someone thinking it convienant to let my dog run, and that I am not one that just doesn’t care about the rules. I wish I could explain to him, that the forest called me to walk in it….. to make it lighter and wake it up. For it has been sleeping for quite sometime and every day it calls me to make another walk to share our gifts. It tells me where to go and always brings me back home. Desite my fear of getting lost. The forest tells me when to put my dog on leash and when he can wonder free. When I follow the ranger, my dog disaggrees and lets me know. When I follow the call of my hearts connection to the woods, she relaxes and follows along. How do I tell the ranger that, if perhaps he himself would deem me disturbed for claiming such a bond …….. and perhaps I am…
All I know that the past year and a half, this forest has come to life. More vibrant, happy and radiating then it has in a long time…It wasn’t just me..and I don’t want a medal nor do I think the world will ever acknowledge this silent love in action…but I really wish I wouldn’t be bound by silly rules that were rightfully put in place for people that stamp through nature, yell and scream as if they were at home without ever connecting to this beautiful field of empowerment. I feel as much a ranger of this forest -allbeit on a more energetic level-. I didn’t study for it. No organization or government appointed me… I was called by the trees, plants, animals and ground that live here on this precious piece of earth.
Today I ignored the rules and let my dog wonder free where I was told to go. At the end of my walk we ended up by a beautilfull tree that was still standing here when I visited it last. But now it was cut in several pieces. I somehow didn’t morn for the tree as I usually do, for I felt there was a reason it was cut down. Perhaps the storm had damaged it or surrounding trees needed their space to grow. Even though I know nature makes no mistakes and we need never intervene in a wisdom beyond what our minds can comprehend…it still felt ok…
I looked at the tree that had lost part of is coat during the cut down. The beautiful bast was stripped at portions of its stem. The bare yellow gold curvy wood was reveiled that looked like baybskin so pure. I just had to touch and feel this wood and imagined that this is what a carpenter must feel in his love for wood. I sat there holding the wood for a while when I felt this lifeforce crawl up my body. My until then tired and sad body became alive…
In my mind I could hear the tree say: thank you for taking my life force. My purpose would be in vain if I was not able to gift that what I am, and was, to the next generation. I am not dead when you cut me down. But I loose my connection to the all and slowly my lifeforce dissipates. I was cut down before I had a chance to transfer my wisdom to the ground and surrounding trees. I never had a chance to adjust my field to give all that I am to all that remains, so nothing has been in vain.
The story of the cherry tree in ‘Anastasia and the Ringing Ceders’ came to mind and I realized from what I read there…to make its purpose fullfilled I needed to open myself up to receive the tree’s gift…..so I sat there…holding the tree and feeling this huge power and love be downloaded into my system. I didn’t feel tired or sad anymore…just fool of being.
I also felt even though the tree was happy for me to take his gift of life, I felt I could also help anchor this energy into the ground and thus the roots of others trees… to make the circle of life complete. When I felt all was done for a moment I could see the forest through the eyes of a tree… A beautiful network of life connected. No tree more important than the other, no tree different from the other… All connected in a huge network of life.
I walked on and felt full of life and especially love for that around me. More determined then ever to share this gift all throughout the forest…when I am so asked…I hope I will be as brave as I was today to ignore the ranger and follow the call of nature.