Today was our usual day of meeting at the Joint Vision. Right now we are all juggling schedules and other obligations and making as much room as possible to be in the Joint Vision of Humanity. We now are mostly set in our new place. This morning was needed for a bit of a cleaning of the house which we didn’t have proper time for before and was very needed. But cleaning isn’t that much of an effort when you do it together.

I could feel the energy shift while we were cleaning and tidying up. We were surely moving our energy and grounding it more deeply in our place. Even the change of energy between the ‘downstairs’ and the ‘upstairs’ is now becoming tangible. How lucky are we to call this our home. How lucky are we to be working here. The dinner across the streets has excellent salads so in no compromise over health I was able to enjoy a good lunch even though I had forgotten mine at home. How lucky am I to be here an write this blog here!

The road that has led to this decision and the constant trust I have to embrace to anchor myself here are tremendous. And each time I have doubts I ground myself deeper and think of the whales in the Arctic that have provided me with the strength and trust I do not walk alone.

Today two of us (Joint Vision) are in Hawaii and even though their energy in meetings is not very ‘contributing’ in words. It is in being. Their miss was felt. It makes me realize so much more how important it is we grow in numbers. More people, more strength, more light.. to make a difference. Not because so much needs changing but because we need to come together and be connected.

I don’t believe in this lifetime we will feel as ‘one’ but I do feel that in our connection our actions can be as ‘one’. And I need to trust and believe in that.

In our meetings I can be totally connected and then the next moment suddenly be aware of the task we have put before us…. and when I realize how much still needs to be done and how little time we have….. I get scared and react as stung by a bee.. luckily the amazing people around me too feel this panic.. listen.. respond.. and move on… next subject on our list…no stopping.. no adding to my drama.. just being there and moving on.

Sometimes I look back and realize that it is in fact pretty amazing that I am trusting these people around me and really seeing this come into form… because I know I sure had my share of people who weren’t able to deal with the way I am and the way I look at the world and the drive I have to make us thrive. It wasn’t them.. it was me…

How lucky am I to do this together now..

A million thoughts a day enter my mind… can I do this? Am I just crazy? How can we pull this off?… what were we thinking? Will we have the money? Will we have the resources? Is it just my ego creating this?  and each time.. I breath… I breath deep and I just realize… how lucky am I to be here… How lucky am I… and then I know all my thoughts are valid…. my doubts real… but in the end… I can rest and know.. whatever happens: at least I tried… and I tried that what makes me happy inside…

How lucky am I to feel that.. how lucky am I to experience this…

How lucky are we…. on this planet… together… as one…

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